The pain of losing someone was a foreign concept to Castiel. Well, maybe not entirely, but before it had been easier to deal with. Losing a brother or a sister in battle was a challenge, but it never really crippled the angel before. It never broke him down in any way. Perhaps he had failed to see what his absence could do to the Winchester's. He was possibly naive.
He did watch Rose leave and retreat into the kitchen. His gaze flickered back to Dean. "You and Sam don't need a connection to Heaven. I've--" He let out a sigh. Honesty. "I've never been without it for this long. Before was very different. I do not feel I will come back from this."
He was not trained for that life. He did not know how to function within it without his powers. He did not know his place. He did not feel he even had one anymore. Sam did have a point before though. He should have cleaned up his mess. "My knowledge of them is very limited, but I will assist in any information related capacity you require."
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Date: 2011-12-22 08:35 am (UTC)He did watch Rose leave and retreat into the kitchen. His gaze flickered back to Dean. "You and Sam don't need a connection to Heaven. I've--" He let out a sigh. Honesty. "I've never been without it for this long. Before was very different. I do not feel I will come back from this."
He was not trained for that life. He did not know how to function within it without his powers. He did not know his place. He did not feel he even had one anymore. Sam did have a point before though. He should have cleaned up his mess. "My knowledge of them is very limited, but I will assist in any information related capacity you require."